Sunday, June 29, 2008

Cool, eh?...

There's nothing going on here on this short, boring weekend. I'll spend the next 5 days preparing to have a big 4th of July bash.

Since nothing's happening, I'll just leave you with this photo I took last weekend at the farm.

Thursday, June 26, 2008


Yes, I've been absent without leave lately. I haven't felt like talking, not even to girlfriends. I know my blog missed me. Or is it that I've missed my blog?

So here's what's been going on:

I found out that I'm allergic to the Wellbutrin. It made my stomach hurt really bad and on the 3rd day of stomach pains, I broke out into a horrible rash. According to the pharmacist at work, only 0.1% of those studied had this reaction. That means I'm special. I know, more like riding the short-bus-special. So the doctor switched me to Celexa. It makes me so, so sleepy. Not a sleep all the time sleepy, but a foggy sort of sleepy. I yawn all the time. Today was actually the first day I've felt awake in over a week.

We took the kids last weekend to Shatto Milk Company's farm and took a tour. It was awesome. They provided lunch (hot dogs, baked beans, bottled water, and ice cream). We got to go into the barn and see the baby cows. Yes, I know they're actually called calves but I like baby cows better. One of them was 11 hours old and was just beginning to get his legs. And here's the shocker: I milked a cow! It was so much easier than I ever imagined. The udder had a different texture than what I was expecting, too.

On another note, I found a new sitter that will start watching Gooey in the middle of July. I haven't posted about this but it's been a major headache for me to think about even beginning to interview people. We did visit with one woman but I just wasn't "feeling it" with her. So I stopped by my old babysitter's house the other day to see if she knew of anyone. She lives down the street from me. By my old babysitter, I mean the woman that babysat me from the time I was 9 months old until school started. Anyway, she told me of a few people but then asked if I would be willing to wait until the middle of July. She said that if I could, she'd watch him for me! How awesome is that? She's my Mary Poppins of babysitters...a dream come true! This is such a weight off my mind.

Among a few other things going on are:

I ruined my keyboard so now I'm using the old "spare" that we keep around. The keys on this are so loud, I'll bet if you listen close, you can hear me typing this.

My sister bought me a new nightgown. I thought that was so sweet of her to think of me. It's nothing sexy or fancy but it's so soft and comfortable, all I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep in it.

Well, that about sums up my days. I know, nothing of much interest but this is my life.

Monday, June 23, 2008


Sunday, June 08, 2008


Last night we watched Bill Engvall's 15 Degrees Off Cool. I highly recommend it. He was so funny, he even laughed at himself and had a hard time getting through some of his jokes. Part of his monologue is about how he's 15 degrees off cool. What he means by this is, there are cool people and he's just 15 degrees off of what most people would call cool. Watch this and you'll see what he means. I could so relate to what he was saying.

I'm 15 degrees off diva. Even in the blogging world.

I don't post about fashionable shoes. I wouldn't even know one if Prince Charming asked me to try one on.

My purse is a Tinkerbell purse I bought at Walmart. If I had to go to a police line up and choose the most fashionable purse, I'd be up a creek without a Gucci paddle.

Other bloggers post about reading best selling books by popular authors. The most recent book I could post about would be Snuggle Puppy. It's short but worth the read. I don't have time to sit down with a good book anymore. If I did, I'd read a few words and fall asleep. It would take me until my 56th birthday to complete the book. So I can't even be a geeky, blogging diva.

I truly am 15 degrees off diva. It's been proven.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008


...thus begins the new era of Mommeee on drugs.

The past few months I've really been struggling with being depressed. Between dealing with issues with my mom, Daddeee's other woman (his motorcycle fetish, for those who don't know), a young boy being to turn into a teenager, and a 2 year old, I've felt lately like I'm stuck in a vortex going down the drain.

I've been dealing with my mother by not dealing with her. I've struggled with Daddeee spending all his spare time with "the other woman". The pre-teen and the 2 year old...well, that sums it up, I think.

But everything came to a head while on vacation when I had a melt down. Some would call it a panic attack, others an anxiety attack.

We were on the dock the first night we arrived. Gooey was wearing his new Cars life vest. Everyone was having a wonderful time until Gooey got too close to the edge of the dock and I came unglued. Yes, I know he was protected by his vest and yes, I know the water was only about 10 feet deep where we were.

My heart raced and pounded so hard I just know you could see it through my shirt.

I began to sweat.

I couldn't stand up.

I couldn't breathe.

This lasted about 10 minutes before I was finally able to get a grip on myself. I knew then it was time to get some help.

I went to the doctor yesterday and she listened to me blubber and blubber on and on. She was very understanding and put me on Wellbutrin. She said it's good for depression and anxiety. The bonus is, it WON'T make me gain weight like every other medication I've taken in my life (the prednisone was a nightmare).

So we shall see how things go. Clinical Pharmacology says it takes a full month for it to make it to it's full potential. Let's hope the month goes by fast.